Revelation

I must effect the change I want to see in my world. How poignantly cheesy. So...what does that mean?

Well...I was hit by a very very startling fact that I have long been denying. Last night, upon arriving home from the supermarket, where I had purchased the infamous 'scale', I decided to step on it.

The number that appeared on the small digital screen was enough to leave me breathless. Somehow, by neglecting to simply be aware, I have managed gain a LOT of weight. I almost don't want to put it in black and white on the screen, but this blog is going to become my confessional and my form of accountability. I need to be upfront with myself most of all.

I weigh 200 pounds. I am 70-75 pounds overweight.

70 pounds?


70 pounds.

It is a hard number to look at. Very hard. It's upsetting, depressing, angering. It is hard to accept. I almost try to deny it. But I can't.

Instead, I have become resilient. I will change. I will beat this. I will overcome and be better for it. And I plan to track my progress from this point forward using this formerly directionless blog.

My goals? To lose at LEAST 70 pounds by my 23 birthday on October 4. 4 months. 18 pounds a month. Roughly 5 pounds a week. Do you think I can do it? I think I can.

No, I know I can.